F** You

Out of the Cave

This one ain't pretty, and I won't dress it up for you. I prayed to the wrong things, I said sorry like it was gasoline, I broke what I was holding and I still lie about it. Two things can be true, and I am both the bullet and the wound. There's no clean ending in here. But the truth said out loud, even ugly, is the first thing in years that didn't lie to me.

Lyrics

I drank the guilt and fucked the cure
Begged for truth, then slammed the door
I called it love, then lit the fuse
Shot my shadow just to lose

I licked the floor, I bit the sun
I held her while I came undone
And every "sorry" that I screamed
Was gasoline in my machine

Without the knife, the kiss is fake
Without the sin, there's no soul to take
Without the hate, love's just a mask
Without the fuck-up, there's no past

So light the match—I'm done with grace
Truth ain't holy, it's a fist to the face
Two things can be true—
And one of them is FUCK. YOU.

I let her in, then fucked her out
Held her throat, whispered doubt
Said “forever” with a splintered grin
Then jerked off to who I should’ve been

I am the priest of contradiction
My gospel’s written in addiction
Charlie nights, hotel floors
God's not watching anymore

Joy / Misery
Truth / Depravity
Fucked for real / Fake for clarity
Freedom’s just another cavity

I prayed to coke
I sinned in bed
I made love while wishing she was dead

I'm sober now but I miss the high
I broke her heart and I still lie
I told myself I’d rise again—
But that motherfucker never showed up, man

Love is not the fucking answer.
It’s the question that kills you slowly.
And I…
I let it.

Without the fall, what’s left to feel?
Without the fuck, what’s even real?
Without the rage, there's no rebirth—
Without the pain, there's no goddamn worth

So take my name and piss it out
Put my ashes in your fucking mouth
Two things can be true—
AND I AM BOTH THE BULLET AND THE WOUND.

You think this ends in grace?
There’s no fucking grace.
There’s only me.
And what I couldn’t save.

Words and music: Romian Nazlab · A Bonfire Production